The one where I almost don’t go to BlogHer

My niece went to camp and got sent home early.

She did not get in trouble. She did not break the rules.  She was not caught creeping out of her cabin after hours in an attempt to make it  to the boys’ side of the camp.  Unfortunately!

Nope, what she did get was exposure to Swine Flu.

SWINE FLU.

Then she got sick.

But not with the flu.

Nope. No flu.

I think she has mono.

Seriously.

And this is the daughter of my sister who was supposed to be watching my kids for BlogHer.

Take a minute to think about that.

I have an immune-compromised kid and my sister’s kid is S.I.C.K.

I have moved to a new city where I know no one.  All my family is elsewhere…as are my friends with babysitting-aged younglings.

SCREWED!!

I ARE SCREWED!!

I panicked. I Facebooked it and Tweeted it and cried and threw a big-ass temper tantrum.

It truly meant that there was a very good chance that BlogHer was just beyond my reach.

And I? Became a six-year-old who was just told there was no ice cream for dessert.

BUT I WANT IT!!!!! YOU PROMISED!!! I HATE YOU!!!! YOU’RE NOT THE BOSS OF ME!!!

Oh yeah, those awesome coping skills I  pretend to have? Gone.

I spent several hours bemoaning the fact that I would not be in Chicago enjoying the company of friends old and new….not getting the chance to promote the new blogs I’ve worked so hard on…not get to speak at the panel with my peers….and no swag for Anissa.

I know. You could almost cry.

And then it REALLY hit me.  That meant having to give back the money I’ve already spent on the registration/hotel/flight from HP, who’s kind enough to feel I’m worthy to attend on their dime.

And THE dress from the ever-surprising Lane Bryant? I would not be wearing it to the cocktail parties…I would, in fact, probably be require to pay them for it.

There would be no Ford test drives, no awesome jewelry from Sorelli meeting me in Chicago along with the Yummy Tummy garments sure to make me look svelte in the dress that I would no longer get to wear.

My sadness was large.

Then it hit me. This is July!  July, the month of my daughter’s cancer diagnosis.  July, the month I had a stroke. Seriously, if THIS was the worst July had to throw at me, I could deal, right?

It didn’t stop me from being ridiculously disappointed…from feeling bereft to know I would not get to do the hugging and laughing and talking and meeting I have been anticipating for months.

But I could cope.

Then? My knight in shining armor came in to save the day.

Nope, not my husband, even though I love him to bits.

My friend Chris.  He’s going to come down from north Atlanta every day and spend the day with my kids while Peter’s working!  He’s going to watch the kids, take them on bike rides and teach them to play Guitar Hero.

I am going to BlogHer…but now with it all in a little more perspective.

Yup, still wicked excited and full of glee.

Still anticipating a time so fun I may never recover.

But, I also know that in the grand scheme of things….to not have gone would not been the end of the world.

Cause, dude, I have been to the brink and trust me, no one cared about SWAG.

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23 Responses to The one where I almost don’t go to BlogHer

  1. Ang July 31, 2009 at 7:53 PM #

    I was afraid to call you, that you would still be upset you did not get to go. Then with all the stuff going on at home….Then from Florida, I finally had time to look at the site and YOU GOT TO GO! You could have told me so i would not have had this guilt for the last two weeks.
    Sounds like you had a great time. I will need to meet Chris and give him a hug for saving me from being disowned by you. love you – ang

  2. Jo-Lynne July 25, 2009 at 1:00 PM #

    Girl. Love the new digs. And you sum it up PERFECTLY. I'm so glad you got to go!

  3. Ami July 24, 2009 at 1:24 PM #

    Anissa, those last few statements say everything. We've been right there with you and you're right. No one cared about swag. It might have helped a little though! Have fun!!

  4. Amy@Atlanta with Kid July 23, 2009 at 7:01 PM #

    I'm glad it all worked out for you. Your friend is amazing!

  5. Lisa July 22, 2009 at 8:27 PM #

    I was volunteering at a camp for kids whose siblings had/have cancer last week and got sent home three days early because I did get swine flu!! Freaking swine flu. I'm all better now but it was seriously weird.

  6. FearandParentinginLV July 22, 2009 at 7:42 PM #

    We had a swine flu scare as well (the kids, not me). Thanks to antivirals, all is well, but it was a close call. You can fine me at BlogHer. I'll be in the leper section.

  7. mattnem05 July 22, 2009 at 2:02 PM #

    Well if you wanted you could have brought the kids with and parked them at my house with my 2. I'm about a 45 min trip from Chicago here……..

    I'm glad you found a solution that works for you, have fun and grab all the SWAG you can get. It sounds like you will have a blast

  8. Miss Grace July 22, 2009 at 1:49 PM #

    I'm so glad you're coming. Oh! That you're already there!

  9. Kyla July 22, 2009 at 1:38 PM #

    Glad it all worked out! I wish I was going. Stupid school. ;)

  10. Shash July 22, 2009 at 1:25 PM #

    I'm glad you worked things out. It would not be the same after all our talks and schemes to not have you there. :)

    See you soon!!!

  11. Kate July 22, 2009 at 1:11 PM #

    Wow, Chris sounds awesome. Please send him to my house next.

  12. Elinor July 22, 2009 at 11:29 AM #

    I hope your niece gets well real soon, but I would think that would be your priority.

  13. IrreverentMommy July 22, 2009 at 3:18 AM #

    Thank goodness, it must be a relief!! Bring back something kick ass for Chris!

  14. maggie, dammit July 22, 2009 at 2:15 AM #

    THANK GOD I STILL GET TO HUG YOU.

  15. MommyNamedApril July 22, 2009 at 12:16 AM #

    great post. good perspective. and i'm glad you're getting to go :-)
    wish i could be there to meet you!

  16. The Mom Jen July 21, 2009 at 8:12 PM #

    Your friend Chris is an angel!!

  17. tena July 21, 2009 at 7:11 PM #

    how sweet- and now I feel like an ass, but I'm afraid I would have thrown a big ol' fit if you didn't go!

  18. Krystal July 21, 2009 at 7:01 PM #

    Wow!! That was a close call!! Good to hear it all worked out – enjoy some swag for me!

  19. Ivy July 21, 2009 at 7:00 PM #

    I am so glad you can go Anissa….you deserve to ENJOY a July!! Make sure you eat some pizza for me :)

  20. MommyGeekology July 21, 2009 at 6:53 PM #

    So glad you can make it after all… and with perspective! It's like it's own SWAG.

  21. Trish July 21, 2009 at 6:47 PM #

    Way to go, friend Chris! I know it helps to put it all in perspective, but I'm still super glad for you that you get to go to BlogHer.

  22. OHmommy July 21, 2009 at 6:47 PM #

    Phew… that was close. Glad you will be there. Cause what would Blogher be without you, no?

  23. AnissaMayhew July 21, 2009 at 6:25 PM #

    high fives to Chris!!!

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