There’s not enough candy in the world for this much crazy

Peyton had an oncology checkup on Tuesday.

I had the pukes.

They rescheduled it for Wednesday.

I still didn’t feel like I was safe to be around the immune-compromised kids, so I canceled that one too.

Now, we wait until next week to see her doctor and get her bloodwork.

And I’m sort of relieved. It’s been a year off treatment for Peyton and they’re going to change our schedule to only having checkup ever other month…waiting a full sixty days between visits.

This is a good thing…it’s the natural progression of a healthy off-treatment life.

We are being weaned.

I’m not sure if I’m ready to let go of the security blanket.  I like having those numbers in my hand every month…the numbers are concrete…they are our PROOF that she’s ok.

So, I’m relieved that we’re not going in until next week.  Because I’d rather wait an extra week between clinic visits than have them tell me to wait longer between clinic visits.

I know. Savor the irony.

Ya’ll better pray for my kids because their mother is obviously losing her mind.

And to take the focus off my insanity, HALLOWEEN CUTENESS!


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8 Responses to There’s not enough candy in the world for this much crazy

  1. Kim November 8, 2009 at 11:54 PM #

    Someone sent me a link to your blog and I know why… your words are beautiful… and your Peyton? Amazing. Survivor. Fighter. Strong. Courageous. Can't wait to read more, I'm so glad that I found your blog.
    -Kim (fighting cancer)

  2. Grumble Girl November 6, 2009 at 3:45 PM #

    Fantastic pics!! Soooo nice… and sending you hugs, lady.

  3. babysteph November 6, 2009 at 3:39 PM #

    There should have been a warning for that first one. SCARY.


  4. Janna November 6, 2009 at 4:36 AM #

    I think your son's costume may give me nightmares….

    While I know it's 'normal' (what is that, again?) to go to every other month, do you actually HAVE to? I guess this makes me an enabler or something, but I am all about peace of mind. I am THAT kind of crazy…

  5. thepsychobabble November 5, 2009 at 8:06 PM #

    Ah, so freaking cute!!

  6. AmazingGreis November 5, 2009 at 7:16 PM #

    That is definitely Halloween cuteness!!!

  7. Half Assed Kitchen November 5, 2009 at 6:00 PM #

    Cute photos! Your kids are darling. Especially the one with blood sluicing down his face.

  8. Molly November 5, 2009 at 4:16 PM #

    I can't imagine the security you must feel with those numbers. I think that's normal! It's a very tangible way to grasp the fact that she is ok. I freaking love you woman! Also your kids? Totally cute!

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