Back before I had the stroke, I was a very busy blogger.
I always had someone to meet, a company to rep, a product to try.
Dude, I was busy.
I also wrote my blog that I loved, I wrote the blog that I dreamed about (and it came true), and these were just a few of the hundred jobs I felt I had.
Did I mention that I had a husband…..not to ever forget the three kids.
Then I had the stroke that changed everything.
And I had to learn to say no.
I had to learn to turn opportunities down.
I had to get past the idea that companies would forget I existed.
And I did it like a champ.
I turned down offers to speak at things because I really couldn’t yet.
There were thing that we’d really like to have, but I’m not able to do what they’re asking yet.
I just wasn’t well enough yet.
It was all ok.
Then came an offer that seemed to pinpoint all the things most wrong with me. It felt like it made everything worse. Turning it down felt like complete failure.
It was the first time a job offer made me cry.
I wanted to be ok again, I wanted for this all to have not happened.
I wanted to be normal again.
Usually there are smiles and lots of laughter but sometimes days are like this.
Then i will wipe the tears away and get back to work.