People think it’s so cool when you get stuff for free. They forget everything comes with a price of it’s own for me.
I remember back when things were easy.
When they were simple.
When I took them for them for granted.
Then I got the offer to be a part of the GAP’s #GapMagic program. I would be given the chance to replace jeans gone since my hospital days. Thanks to ambulance guys.
GAP didn’t know that when they offered.
I made sure they knew I wasn’t you average shopper.
I was more….complicated.
Today I showed up with my wheelchair, husband and three children. Three kids, because a person like me that has to have help trying on has to bring the youngsters along.
And I tried on the clothes with my husband.
Outfit after outfit.
It took four times as long.
I had to breathe for a moment and not think about the last time I wore those those jeans.
I had to explain why I turned down nice offers like purses (zippers mean I can’t get them open) and new shoes (orthopedics for a reason).
But the people were as nice as people could possibly be. They were patient and understanding. They were friendly and funny. They were the people you wish you would get Every time in EVERY store.
A part of me cried when I recognized the sales girl who usually knew me. She didn’t put it together. She, that greeted me and called me by name, didn’t recognize me anymore.
It was a different experience.
Great, but different.