falling up

Today I laid on the floor.  On purpose. With a goal.

One of my biggest fears is falling.

From beds.  Chairs.  Tranfers.

That old joke is true.  It’s not the fall, it’s the landing.

So today at physical therapy I told them to teach me how to get up.

Not that I fall a lot.

But, feeling helpless sucks.

I had to wrangle my body parts.  I forced things that didn’t want to be forced. I was in positions that were humiliating and embarrassing.

I got off the floor.

Sweating and breathing hard, I sat too tired to celebrate what was the victory.

And it was.

I got off the floor.

That may not sound like much.

But I dare you to try with one arm and one leg tied behind your back.

Then tell me about victories.

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39 Responses to falling up

  1. Alex August 27, 2010 at 8:02 PM #

    Hi Anissa,
    I’ve been meaning to check on how you are for ages and now that I’ve logged on, I’m so happy that you’re kicking that stroke’s ass. You’re an awesome lady.

  2. mommabird2345 August 27, 2010 at 7:08 PM #

    You ROCK!! That’s amazing news!! Congrats! :)

  3. Lex (@laprimera) August 27, 2010 at 6:39 PM #

    Woohoo! Go Anissa!!! I just know you’ll be dancin’ in no time! xoxo

    Lex (@laprimera)´s last post…She’s Four!

  4. Ivy August 27, 2010 at 4:57 PM #

    Love to hear about your continued progress!

    Ivy´s last post…When Will Clueless Comments about PPD Stop

  5. Desera August 27, 2010 at 3:34 PM #

    I am so proud of you Anissa! You have such determination and I think you are a beautiful person inside and out. Keep up the good work! Love you lots! ♥

  6. racheal August 27, 2010 at 1:09 PM #

    I love your passion and determination.

    I have so much respect and love for you that instead of having a pity party and focusing on falling, you focused instead on getting back up.

    You keep going girl!

  7. Shana Dumblond August 27, 2010 at 1:00 PM #

    Booyah! Gravity can suck it!
    Good for you!

  8. Cort (Modern Super Momma) August 27, 2010 at 11:38 AM #

    You are UNSTOPPABLE! I’m so proud of you! You faced a major fear – and found a way to solve the problem. You may still not WANT to fall, but you know it isn’t the end of the road if you do!

    Cort (Modern Super Momma)´s last post…Magazine – its for your shitter

  9. Michelle @ Mommy Loves Stilettos August 27, 2010 at 11:15 AM #

    That is incredible!!!!!! :)

    Michelle @ Mommy Loves Stilettos´s last post…Silly Bandz Injuries

  10. Jennifer August 27, 2010 at 11:02 AM #

    You are amazing Anissa!

  11. Jennifer August 27, 2010 at 9:52 AM #

    The accomplishment isn’t so fantastic just because you did it, but because you wanted to. Lots of lessons in that for lots of people. Myself included.

    Jennifer´s last post…Ruined

  12. Lee Cockrum August 27, 2010 at 9:42 AM #

    Congratulations!! I am a physical therapist , so I know how hard it is! I have a lot of admiration for you.

    • Anissa Mayhew August 27, 2010 at 12:52 PM #

      To know you KNOW from that side of the battle, thanks for still wanting to read about it.

  13. Barnmaven August 27, 2010 at 9:00 AM #

    I’m pretty damn sure I could not do that.

    Much respect.

    Barnmaven´s last post…Me and my big mouth

  14. Angie August 27, 2010 at 8:59 AM #

    That is an awesome accomplishment. You are a brave and strong woman. I love hearing about your progress everyday!

  15. Melisa with one s August 27, 2010 at 7:57 AM #

    This is AWESOME. Such hard work, but so important to learn how to get back up.

    Go girl!

    Melisa with one s´s last post…Ein Prosit- Ein Prosit- Der Gemütlichkeit

    • Anissa Mayhew August 27, 2010 at 12:11 PM #

      Just to let you know, my nails still look fine!!

  16. Jennifer August 27, 2010 at 4:52 AM #

    This is a HUGE accomplishment and that’s wonderful that you were able to do it!! HOORAY!

    Jennifer´s last post…Dear AugustYou Suck

  17. Susie August 27, 2010 at 1:40 AM #

    I’ve said it before; I’ll say it again. You have grit, Anissa! You show us the real meaning of victory. You never give up! Now go get tomorrow and tell us the next victory! Your writing is exquisite, but your heart is even more so. I (and all of us) are rooting for you…

    • Anissa Mayhew August 27, 2010 at 12:10 PM #

      It means more than you can understand to have your support.

  18. Erin August 27, 2010 at 12:15 AM #

    I’ve been slacking with the long rambly comments.

    But I’m still reading. And sending you lots of love vibes.

    Just hard to write long rambly comments with one hand and a baby in the other (Not sure what will come first: mastery of one handed typing OR the baby being independent and not wanting to cuddle 24/7. Or not wanting to cuddle HIM 24/7.

    Either way. I just wanted to say that DUDE…you rock my socks. Right off.

    Yeah. That’s it. Man, even one handed I’m rambly.

    Erin´s last post…Babies &amp Blogging

  19. schmutzie August 27, 2010 at 12:02 AM #

    That’s hard work, woman! I’m proud of you.

    schmutzie´s last post…A Guide to Internet Memes

  20. Jennifer August 26, 2010 at 11:45 PM #

    You continue to AMAZE me!! Congrats on a job well done. And I have to say thing… YOU FREAKING ROCK!! Keep it up sista!

    Jennifer´s last post…UPDATEDWin a family four pack of tickets to see Sesame Street Live!!

  21. Nicole Drysdale August 26, 2010 at 11:43 PM #

    I don’t know you but you amaze me. Seriously.

    You don’t take no for an answer! Keep breaking all those barriers down, Anissa!!!!!

  22. Kristi August 26, 2010 at 11:39 PM #

    Every single day I am in awe of you. You wow my socks off, and I love you for it.

    Go, girl. :-)

    Kristi´s last post…Paying for it

  23. ThePeachy1 August 26, 2010 at 11:31 PM #

    I know how hard you are working. I couldn’t do it. Also I refuse to tie one leg behind my back, last time I did that I got pregnant.

  24. Tug August 26, 2010 at 11:05 PM #

    YOU are doing AWESOME!! My ex (ex because he went to drugs) was a paraplegic, & before we ever left rehab he had to show that he could get himself up from the floor, just in case I wasn’t around. I saw his struggle…I tried everything he did beside him to have “some kind” of an idea. OMG with the tough…and I wasn’t him. Or you.

    YOU.RAWK. Such an inspiration. Keep the fight, and know that you have people behind you fighting for you every step of the way!

    Tug´s last post…Beautiful start to a day

    • Anissa Mayhew August 27, 2010 at 12:07 PM #

      OMG with the trying and doing everything. That means a lot. A LOT.

  25. Priscilla-The Wheelchair Mommy August 26, 2010 at 11:01 PM #

    I’ve been a paraplegic for almost 11 years. I still can’t get off the floor unless my life depends on it. And then it’s still questionable. :D


    • Anissa Mayhew August 27, 2010 at 12:05 PM #

      Thanks for the time it take to come here and share parts of yourself.

      Come over any time and we’ll just lay on the floor together. (dude, that was hard!!)

  26. Annie Y August 26, 2010 at 10:38 PM #

    Anissa, I love your determination! You are definitely kicking ass and taking names! Keep rocking!

    Annie Y´s last post…K’NEX Building Sets Review

  27. Becky August 26, 2010 at 10:28 PM #

    What a smart idea! You rock, Anissa. *g*

  28. Kate August 26, 2010 at 10:19 PM #

    That’s amazing. It really is.

  29. Angi August 26, 2010 at 10:17 PM #

    I’m so proud of you. I love your never give up. Just keep swimming! :)

    • Anissa Mayhew August 27, 2010 at 12:02 PM #

      I totally have the urge to get an exit buddy now.

  30. Hamlet's Mistress August 26, 2010 at 10:16 PM #

    You accomplish more with two limbs than I do with 4. I think I seriously lack ambition.

    Great job.


    Hamlet’s Mistress´s last post…5 on my To Do list… DONE

  31. Kevin August 26, 2010 at 10:16 PM #

    Awesome!! Congratulations!!

    The sky’s the limit now!

    Kevin´s last post…Let The Nudity Begin

    • Anissa Mayhew August 27, 2010 at 12:01 PM #

      Thank you so much!! Let’s keep hoping.

  32. Melissa August 26, 2010 at 10:15 PM #

    I love you! You are going to get it ALL back lovly lady!

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