a day spent reading the interwebs

I would love to tell you something that is meaningful and deep.

Tell you how I spent the day doing things that changed the world.

I really spent most of my day online.

Now, I did some fairly important stuff.

But a large portion of the day was spent going from article to article.

On strokes.

The causes.  The recovery.  The history. The past.  The future.  The experimental.  What you can get for $1000 in a nameless clinic in Taiwan.

I didn’t read it all.

But my eyes hurt like you wouldn’t believe.

I read some things that encouraged me to want to get out of my wheelchair and go for a jog.

Then I read some things that made me want to crawl in bed and just give up.

I didn’t read anything that shook my world.

I got a lot of new information and interesting questions to ask.

A part of me hoped to find an easy answer.

But most of me found what I expected.

If I wanted improvement, I’d have to work for it.

I guess things won’t be changing.

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22 Responses to a day spent reading the interwebs

  1. Skippymom October 21, 2010 at 2:09 PM #

    I don’t know if you will get this comment as it is a couple of days late – but you are amazing Annisa – and you have come so far. [I read often but don't comment, sorry] I just thought that you should know that you are very inspiring to many people.

    And don’t forget to share the best p*orn sites okay? heehee

    Take care and keep at it!

  2. Shelley October 14, 2010 at 6:49 PM #

    Seriously?! Not changing? Have you seen YOU? Changes everyday! You are Anissa Freaking Mayhew and you ROCK! Everyday!

  3. Queen of the Click October 14, 2010 at 4:52 PM #

    Maybe you don’t see your progress as much as others can.

    You’ve come a loooooooooong way. Remember a time when you weren’t online and your sweet husband was making a posts for you.

    It doesn’t matter what you found online…you are one of the miracles in this world because God says so. Don’t let Him down as he has some mighty big plans for you.

    • Anissa Mayhew October 14, 2010 at 5:55 PM #

      Today was a day when God smacked me upside the head and said, ” Pay attention!”

      Sometimes I forget to look for the plans.

  4. Jessica October 14, 2010 at 3:22 PM #

    I go out looking for miracles on the web for my mom every couple of months. Haven’t found any. But I remember the 3rd day in the rehab center, a woman marched into my mother’s room – I remember the jangle of her car keys in her hand. She said, “Did you have a stroke?” to my mom. My mom couldn’t even nod her head. “I had a stroke” said the woman, “As bad as yours. And I’ll never be the same again.” Then she walked out of the rehab center and I watched her get in her car and drive away. And that was the miracle that has kept me and my mom going for the last 2 years. The woman was very similar to my mom but there she was walking, talking, driving, and offering hope. Hope not platitudes. But I think she’s right – once you go through something as profound as a stroke and recovery you are never the same again. Some might argue that you are better.

  5. Susan (5 Minutes for Mom) October 14, 2010 at 1:35 PM #

    You are progressing like the rockstar you are. And we’re all here cheering you on.

    Susan (5 Minutes for Mom)´s last post…Scott Stratten Says Don’t Call Yourself a Work-At-Home Mom or WAHM

  6. CJ October 14, 2010 at 10:00 AM #

    Anissa, I’m not sure how I stumbled across your blog, but I’m so glad I did! Your voice is clear and distinct, and every sentence you write is poetic and beautiful. Just thought I’d shuffle out of the shadows and let you know how much I appreciate your writing. Please don’t ever stop!

    OK, back to lurking…. *shuffleshuffleshuffle*

    • Anissa Mayhew October 14, 2010 at 5:57 PM #


      It means the world to me that you took the time to de-lurk from the shadows. Thank you.

  7. Monica~MommyBrain October 14, 2010 at 9:23 AM #

    Yeah.. what they said ^…
    Things are changing..They have been for some time, and they will continue to change! Um… a year ago .. you were in a hospital bed… can you believe it’s already been a year? You’ve made SO much progress since then… Sure… It’s hard work.. but you’re Anissa Mayhew. You can take on the world..

    • Anissa Mayhew October 14, 2010 at 8:28 PM #

      I had days I feel weaker than others. Then a day like today happens and makes me feel extra strong. Willing to work harder than ever.

  8. Julie Ellis October 14, 2010 at 9:14 AM #

    Anissa – you are showing how hard you work every day – and difficult as it is, the hard work is shaping who you are and how you view the world. Thanks for sharing your journey!

  9. Jayne October 14, 2010 at 2:46 AM #

    But…things ARE changing.

    Do I need to quote…well…YOU?

    Jayne´s last post…“Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives”

    • Anissa Mayhew October 14, 2010 at 8:29 PM #

      LOL. Thank you. That WAS what I needed.

  10. Kristin October 14, 2010 at 1:18 AM #

    Slow and steady wins the race honey. You WILL get there.

    Kristin´s last post…Yesterday was National Coming Out Day

  11. Amo October 14, 2010 at 1:03 AM #

    Baby steps, friend. It’s all we can ask of ourselves.

    I’m pretty damn proud of you, though.

    Amo´s last post…My Neighbor Called It Darwinism

    • Anissa Mayhew October 14, 2010 at 8:31 PM #

      I love the hell out of you, you know that?

  12. Kristine (Mommy Needs Therapy) October 14, 2010 at 12:06 AM #

    Have you read any of Norman Doidge’s work yet? This is the book that got me on the right path for Noah. I do recall there being some interesting parts about stroke.

  13. Little Big October 13, 2010 at 11:23 PM #

    Sometimes the hardest thing in the world is just to keep going.

    Little Big´s last post…The Little Big Shop- Autumn Collection

    • Anissa Mayhew October 14, 2010 at 8:38 PM #

      Encouraging me over and over can’t be easy either. Thank you.

  14. pgoodness October 13, 2010 at 11:22 PM #

    Come on, Anissa – what kind of worth would it have if you didn’t have to work for it?

    (Meh, ok, it would be so worth it and awesome, but I’m trying make lemonade here for you. Also, stop reading that crap. xo)

    • Anissa Mayhew October 14, 2010 at 8:39 PM #

      I’ve decided to only read porn from now on.

  15. DesignHER Momma October 13, 2010 at 11:21 PM #

    have I told you lately how proud of you I am? Because I am.

    DesignHER Momma´s last post…I tell myself- “He needs me”

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