nothing but air

I went to therapy on Thursday.

I guess I have that “try anything” look, cause B tried almost EVERYTHING.

If she thought there was a chance I could do it, we tried.

Using a special leg brace that gives me extra straightening strength in my right leg, I did what she told me to try.

Standing, balanced, with both feet on the floor.

Standing with no hold on anything, pushing my right hip out.

Standing with no grip on anything, I did ten squats.

No walker, no cane, just a death-grip on B’s hand, I walked.

It wasn’t graceful. It wasn’t beautiful.

It was the first time in almost a year I looked in a mirror and there was nothing in front of me.

Nothing in my hands.

Nothing to grab.

Nothing but air.

THAT was beautiful.

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31 Responses to nothing but air

  1. Kevin November 9, 2010 at 7:44 PM #

    SO Exciting!!!


    Next you’re be registering for the NYC marathon! Keep up the good work!

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  2. Melinda November 9, 2010 at 2:09 PM #

    I am running behind on my Google Reader again. This is AWESOME!!!!!!

    Not that I’m calling you inspirational, or anything :)

  3. Jessica November 8, 2010 at 1:19 PM #

    I’m just wondering when you’ll start training for a marathon. :-)

    Chills – you give me chills. And a dose of hope.

  4. Dawn Tucker November 8, 2010 at 5:26 AM #

    Sorry I’m a bit late catching up with your news – but this is so wonderful.

    You know, very few people will ever get to know how Neil Armstrong felt ……… but I think you might just have come close!!!

  5. Tracey - JustAnotherMommyBlog November 7, 2010 at 8:01 PM #

    AWESOME!!! You go girl. You go.

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  6. Adventures In Babywearing November 7, 2010 at 11:42 AM #

    Yay! :)


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  7. Annie from Oregon November 7, 2010 at 2:25 AM #

    Anissa, how thrilling! With just a few words, I *saw* what you did…and it WAS beautiful. Lori said what I felt…better than I can. You are doing it! Not even a year and you are walking! Such a long way in such a short time. Truly you are strong and brave and awesome. =o)

  8. Susie November 7, 2010 at 1:35 AM #

    For once I’m speechless! Wow, just wow…

  9. Susan @WhyMommy November 6, 2010 at 8:30 PM #

    YEAH! Way to go!

    I know physical therapy is hard and rotten — but you’re rocking it!

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  10. OrdinarySarah November 6, 2010 at 5:22 PM #

    You are the definition of determination, my dear! I’m so excited for you and all your progress. :)

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  11. Bridget November 6, 2010 at 1:41 PM #

    When I read posts like this, I kinda want to hop in the car and drive up there and kiss ya! So excited for you!

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  12. mommabird2345 November 6, 2010 at 12:21 PM #

    YAY!!! You Rock! :)

  13. Desera November 6, 2010 at 10:00 AM #

    You are amazing!!! I am so happy for you! ♥

  14. Jayne November 6, 2010 at 3:48 AM #

    I think that the reason B pushes you so hard is that she can see that spark in you, the one that so many of us love to read about, the spark which makes you defiant, unbeatable, and so so loved by all of us.

    Congratulations, as usual!

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  15. Jennifer November 6, 2010 at 2:42 AM #

    Absolutely AWESOME!!! Congratulations!

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  16. misty November 6, 2010 at 12:12 AM #

    I dont even know what to say!! that is freaking awesome!! sooo happy for you!!

  17. Robin Plemmons November 5, 2010 at 11:50 PM #

    YAY!!!!!!!!! Your body is a wonderland.

  18. Lori @ In Pursuit of Martha Points November 5, 2010 at 11:50 PM #

    You without a frame.

    You without a border.

    Just you.

  19. Josefina November 5, 2010 at 11:34 PM #

    Anissa, I am so happy and hopeful for you!

  20. beczhang November 5, 2010 at 11:25 PM #

    That is so great!

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  21. Becky November 5, 2010 at 11:20 PM #

    Anissa, I’m so proud of you and all you have accomplished! I know it’s hard work, I know it’s no fun, but damn woman … look at you!!!

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  22. Diane Brogan November 5, 2010 at 11:16 PM #

    Nothing but air. That is so wonderful! Thank you for sharing your storey with us.

  23. Sunday November 5, 2010 at 11:03 PM #

    Awesome! Amazing! So happy to read this and I hope you continue to make great strides (and little baby steps!).

  24. Tug November 5, 2010 at 10:59 PM #

    loveLoveLOVE this!!!!!! Beyond awesome. Beyond.

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  25. Robbie November 5, 2010 at 10:34 PM #

    That is INCREDIBLE! I am so excited for you !!!!!!!!!

  26. Kristin November 5, 2010 at 10:33 PM #

    That must have been a truly incredible feeling. YOu should be so proud of yourself!

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  27. Cheri C November 5, 2010 at 10:26 PM #

    So proud of and happy for you. You’re GOING TO DO IT!!!!

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  28. Cheryl@SomewhatCrunchy November 5, 2010 at 10:18 PM #

    Go girl, what an accomplishment! I’m so happy to hear this!

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  29. Julie November 5, 2010 at 10:16 PM #

    Amazing. And yes, it is beautiful.

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  30. Varda (SquashedMom) November 5, 2010 at 10:15 PM #

    That is beyond beautiful. That is beyond awesome. There are actually no words for that. You are fucking amazing! Keep on hanging out with the air.

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  31. Sisterlisa November 5, 2010 at 10:13 PM #

    Awww that’s wonderful, Anissa!!!! I am in awe of you, have been through so much and you don’t give up.

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