Archive | 2010

making sense of no sense

A year ago my memories are disjointed and unreal. I’m never sure what is dream, memory or story told to me. This was the time most confusing. Where I turned things I didn’t understand into dreams that made sense. Which didn’t. But seemed safer. I have memories of those dreams as clear as a movie. [...]

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puzzle pieces

Everything feels like puzzle. Exercise. Rehab. Writing. Blogs. Friends. Relatives. The biggest piece. The one all the others have to fit around. Family. It feels like the side change shape. Get longer. Are shortened. A spot that once arched out now curves in. The transformations are subtle. Their changes. Mine. Physical. Emotional. The pieces always [...]

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relaunching belief in myself

I am so proud of the re-launch of Aiming Low. It was amazing to see the new team of writers all come together. It felt good to have that rush of accomplishment again. Having brilliant minds come together for a common purpose. Staring at the blank slate. Wondering if I really wanted that challenge. Feeling [...]

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she’s done a lot in seven years

You were the last we were going to have. Every soft breath and quiet cry was held in a little firmer grasp. We smiled with the newness you brought. We marveled at your ability to make us dream deeper. We were shocked with the thought you’d ever be taken away. Impossible. Unfathomable. Unstoppable. Unforgettable. The [...]

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no answers yet

He’s sleeping this morning. The pain in his head woke him up and he spent last night in the ER. Everything came back normal and clean. His mama in the wheelchair wishes they had an answer. I try to convince myself that it’s nothing. But it’s never nothing for us. My sweet husband told me [...]

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the line blurs

Part of me has had to come back to life. There was the trip to Florida and being with people I’d only ever seen whole and healthy. Then I came home to the scramble and excitement that can only happen when you’re heart’s on the line. Both left me drained. Both left me exhilarated. It [...]

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thanksgiving never had more meaning

I’m sitting here in the quiet for the first time in days. Our trip to Florida was eye-opening. We found out that it was possible to miss people when they were five inches away. We also found that when you told your kids to go, they WENT! But they didn’t take toothbrushes. We did miss [...]

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party time!

We are having a party! Since it isn’t as easy for me to go see people, we hope that people will come see us. Where: 3907 Turkey Oak Dr. Brandon, FL (Riverhills subdivision guesthouse) When: Sunday 21 4-8pm Who: Anyone that can make it! What to bring: Food or Drinks if you can (if not, [...]

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the secret to our marriage

Every day I would wait until he came and saw me. Hospital.  Nursing home.  Rehab hospital. I would wait to hear his voice. I could hang on all day while I waited for his hug. He would bring my only reason to smile sometimes. Maybe it was the kids. Maybe it was a joke. He [...]

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a year ago today…

A year ago today I went shopping. A year ago today I ate lunch. A year ago today I felt my legs way. A year ago today I watched the sky go by out the window of an ambulence. A year ago today I wondered if I’d ever see my children again. A year ago [...]

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i used the “i” word

Today I had the chance to brag about my kids. Oh, they make me slightly crazy.  Because of the wheelchair, I can’t hide from them anymore. There are days when I’m counting down the seconds minutes days until I can have that mojito. Then there are days when I tell someone truthfully there are no [...]

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going home

There are times I look at the pictures that are all over our walls. Laughs in the grass. Smiles at the park. Moments on the beach. A part of me wishes for those days. Those hugs. These unconditional friendships. Those comforting familiarities. We have a trip coming up. In less than a week we’ll be [...]

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PINK!

We had a big day around here. You might be able to tell from the expression that there was excitement in the air. Then the real fun started. There was water. There was PINK! Lordy, was there ever pink! And then there was the end of Peyton’s face as we knew it.  All we would [...]

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