So I started writing THE BOOK.
The one that I’ve hedged about writing.
It’s doing what I was afraid it would it would do.
It made me remember things I didn’t want to remember.
I had feelings I pushed away.
A person I’m ashamed to have to have been.
But I had to be HER to recover.
SHE had to have her time so I could have mine.
Things I said.
Things I did.
Things I wouldn’t do now.
Bu then.
I did do them.
And it feels like a scar that was healing.
But it was healing wrong.
I cut so it bleeds fresh again.
Each page is written in that blood.
The whole BOOK may be a bloody mess.
Each tear. Each snort. Each raw, gaping truth.
Maybe this time it’ll heal correctly.
Maybe not.
Either way, I’ve started writing THE BOOK.
Ah yes, writing! I have a book inside me (re: my husband’s near-5-year cancer battle, etc.) and have yet to write the first page. I love that you have the courage to do this. Now go get tomorrow, Anissa, like you always do…
Goosebumps.
Yes sweetie … this time may it heal right. And hold no power of hurt over you.
And I will be first in line to buy your book <3
Hell yeah!!!I can;t wait to read YOUR BOOK! It may hurt to remember but you’ve already lived through it.You survived the past. Now you can move through it and fee l your feelings and heal! *Hugs mama* XO
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Way to go Anissa! No matter what it’s written in, I’m sure it’s going to be one hell of a story.
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good for you! sounds like it’s very necessary!
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You are a rock star. Most people will never write a book in their lifetime, and you are writing one after recovering from multiple strokes. Impressive lady, impressive.
I’m sure it will be an emotional journey. You are amazing. You can this.
Well done Anissa. I am sure it will be fantastic and if it helps heal some old wounds then that’s even better.
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hugs! and writing vibes, for the healing
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damn it babe. I love you. there you were, with your back to the door. in a place that was horrible, it was the first time you have been sitting since that November day and I had been in town. like the graceful hippo I am I strutted through the door , a shrinking violet saying hello to the caregivers I had met while you were still horizontal in another place. Without missing a beat you said back turned, ” oh no it’s not.” in that instant, I knew. I knew every second invested in arguing, fighting, throwing tantrums and looking like a huge jackass was worth it. I tested you beyond all tests. You tested me back. Guess who passed. The one making a stand while she sits down. The one who despises being called an inspiration, the one who called the nurses to get her out of her hospital bed so I could lay down with a freaking headache. I have never cared much what flies out of my mouth and how people feel about it, so here you go. “accept the fact that you do indeed change lives.” I am just as honored to call you my friend today as I was 10 years ago, and as I will be 10 years from now.
Don’t forget weird psychotic phone breaking nurses! XOXO love ya Sandi
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I remember your face being one of the first and one that always been there.
No matter what direction we had look to make to make eye contact.