another frustrated photographer

Peyton had a project I helped her do.

It was printing a picture for each year to build a timeline of PEYTON.

We printed the pictures out.  Peyton as a baby.  Peyton as a toddler.  Peyton with cancer. Peyton just before I had the strokes.

The final picture was one of my favorites.

One I had snapped of Peyton sleepy, with her arms wrapped around her daddy, looking at me from over his shoulders.

The picture showed love and total trust and safety.

Peyton with daddy

I looked at that picture and it made me cry.

The me that walked along behind my husband.

The me that could just raise my camera and capture a moment.

The me that took caught our lives in picture to keep forever.

That me was gone.

Oh, she can be replaced with tools and tricks to try to make that passion live again.

But the truth is there are certain gifts that can’t be replaced.

That was one of them.

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10 Responses to another frustrated photographer

  1. Susie September 23, 2011 at 12:53 PM #

    I absolutely love this picture! And I understand your grief for what you lost. That sucks! But there you and Peyton are working on a project together. That moment is worth embracing too. I bet when Peyton looks at you there is love, total trust and safety too.

    Now go get tomorrow (like you always do), Anissa…

  2. JW Moxie September 22, 2011 at 9:44 PM #

    Beautiful. I’m talking about you. xoxox

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  3. Chunky Mama September 22, 2011 at 8:55 PM #

    I’m sorry. It really is a gorgeous photo. You have a beautiful girl there. :)

  4. Anissa Mayhew (@AnissaMayhew) (@AnissaMayhew) September 22, 2011 at 8:51 PM #


  5. Kristin September 22, 2011 at 5:13 PM #

    What a beautiful picture. It must be so very frustrating to have to struggle at something that came so naturally before.

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  6. Peter Mayhew September 22, 2011 at 3:22 PM #

    Huh….I guess I really am bald. ;)

  7. Susan in the Boonies September 22, 2011 at 2:58 PM #

    It’s a great picture, and a really good post. I’m so sorry for the loss!

  8. another frustrated photographer: Peyton had a project I helped her do.
    It was printing a picture for each year t…

  9. Diana September 22, 2011 at 11:09 AM #

    I’m so sorry.

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  10. Anissa Mayhew (@AnissaMayhew) (@AnissaMayhew) September 22, 2011 at 11:02 AM #

    I WROTE THIS: another frustrated photographer –

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