i’m tired

I’m tired.

I’m pushing myself a little harder than I probably should.

I’m organizing the Non-Conference.

I’m planning the Come As You Are party.

I’m proud to be one of the People’s Choices for BlogHer’s Voices Of The Year.

I’m writing my book.

I’m planning for trips.

I have these three beautiful people that depend on me. They come before anything else. That’s not hard to remember but difficult to always make happen.

There’s this need to prove things. That’s to myself.

There’s this need to be everything. That’s to everyone else.

The more that I take on the more I depend on those around me to take the tasks they can.

I DO make the kids fold all the laundry. Clean messes. Water plants.

I DO make Pete fix dinner. Wash dishes. Put away his own crap.

I DO rely on Jackie to help me get the groceries and run errands.

But.

I AM forcing myself to stay up later when I’m wiped out because I need that quiet time without the kids to complete a task.

I’m ignoring the alarm I have set on my phone to take my pills because I’m in the middle of something.

I don’t really nap well when I have the kids home because I know they might need me at any point.

I’m not complaining.

Not one bit.

I’m just telling you, I’m tired.

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4 Responses to i’m tired

  1. Lori Vann June 10, 2012 at 6:01 PM #

    The nap are important, and you know how I feel about those. Take care of YOU…so that you can always be there for them. love you sweet girl!

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  2. Kyooty June 7, 2012 at 11:17 AM #

    Well I don’t have the struggles you do but I have to tell you I’m also still going going to bed too late. It’s a mom thing. It’s that quiet time when they are all in bed? I ended up going back to sleep today due to a headache, but I’m always nervous that’s the day my kids will call from school needing something.

    Kyooty´s last post…Just keep moving

  3. Katherine June 6, 2012 at 10:13 PM #

    The best thing you can do is get to the doctor and ask for a short course (1 to 2 weeks) of sleeping pills to re-regulate you.

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  4. Susan in the Boonies June 6, 2012 at 7:21 PM #

    When you take care of yourself, my friend, everyone around you benefits.
    Hug!

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