“Can I do it?”
I sat on my bed, the handicaps still very new to me with news from people I had thought friends. My feelings crushed, my trust destroyed, my belief in my ability to do anything wavering.
Years later I am thankful to have the truth before me. To have had the experience laid out in front of me.
Sink or swim.
To quote my favorite Star Wars character Yoda, “Do or do not. There is no try.”
I made the choice to do it. It was right. It laid the groundwork for the ME that came through the fire.
The betrayals could have left me harsh and bitter, unable to enjoy the people in my life. Instead, they were like clouds that once gone allowed the sun to shine brighter.
When I see the truth behind the smile. When I know the cutting angles behind the soft smiles. I recognize it in others.
I learned to value truth and honesty above all others. I found the laughter and friendship in the safety of still allowing love close even when I was scared to open up.
The answer was “yes”.