I have a pretty vicious temper. You might not think it, but several friends from my younger days will tell you about fights I was in because I couldn’t control that temper. As years progressed I stopped beating the crap out of people and wrote vicious letters to myself about what made me so angry. I developed a bad habit of actually mailing the letter to the offenders.
Some letters were so angry I’m surprised the mailbox didn’t dissolve on contact.
Then I had kids, I mellowed, I learned some control.
I still have the temper, it’s just on a leash now.
Some people thrive on anger. It’s not good but it can drive them to achieve amazing things.
I’m very much the opposite. If I allow my anger to overtake the rational it eats all my time and I’m drained by the emptiness of needless rage.
So I block it.
I no longer do the things that put me in situations where I’m going to have to be with the sources of my anger. I avoid the thing I KNOW will make me unhappy when there are so many glorious thing and people in which to partake.
And I thrive. Against the words and actions of those that believed me unfit. Regardless of what they said about me I’ve made a small impact in my little corner of the world.
Yes, I still have a terrible temper. I’m quick to anger. I’ve learned that if it’s not something I can change, I’m also quick let it go.
The anger I hold inside me is as damaging as the pain that caused it.