napping is brilliant

When I was in my twenties I went out. A lot. I was up late all night. I slept late every day.

My dinner every night was most people’s breakfast. We used to have a joke that we watched the sunrise often, but only before we went to bed.

I’ve always been a night owl.

In 2005 I had my first stroke. I recovered fully. To the point that if you met me before 2009 you’d never know I had a stroke. There were two lingering effects. My handwriting changed and I suddenly needed to nap to maintain my night owl ways.

It was hard work staying up til 3-4AM then getting up at 6AM with the kids.

I would often crash midday to refuel. But they weren’t required. I just did it to feel good.

Just before I went into my coma I was in Boston and NYC. It was a glorious time. It was the kickoff for Aiming Low and I was rooming with two women who remain two of my best friends to this day. It was my first time in both cities. I have to say I’m really glad I got to go there before the wheelchair became an issue.

I ran around those cities ON FOOT every moment I could. I went to famous places, I saw some famous people, that  was when I was taped for the Today Show (that aired right after my strokes) , I met new friends, it was a trip of a lifetime!

Before I left I promised Pete I would nap.

I didn’t.

Who would waste time sleeping when there was so much to DO?

Then I came home exhausted. With a headache.

One so bad I fell off the grid and slept. Told my friends I had the mother of all migraines.

Then I got up and had to get ready to go again because I had another trip. In the middle of getting ready for that cruise I had a massive stroke. Then later that night I had another.

I nap almost every day now.

My body just wears out quicker. I miss good parties and events. I have to pass on things I’d love to be a part of. All because I know that I have to be kinder to my body than I was before.

I’m not even 40 and I’ve had three strokes. I have to be nice to my body.

I can’t party anymore. I can’t stay out late. I can’t hang.

I do get to celebrate with my daughter as she turns 9 this week. I got to watch video of Pete riding a mechanical bull. I can cherish each tiny exceptional moment with my family and friends.

That is worth it.

That is worth the feeling that napping isn’t a stolen joy but a responsibility.

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3 Responses to napping is brilliant

  1. Alexandra December 27, 2012 at 5:30 PM #

    THis scares me. I know we need to sleep. I know this.

    And yet, it’s the first thing I let go.

    No more.

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  2. IzzyMom December 6, 2012 at 12:13 AM #

    Your GO button didn’t have an OFF switch, my friend. I remember us leaving you alone to take a nap. When we came back? Still up!

    Personally, I will never give up the nap habit and when we’re bluehairs, we can take tandem afternoon naps at the old folks home and then go raise hell at bingo!

    But all the things you might be missing now because now you need to go to bed? They’re never going to be as important as having you here with us.

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  3. Arnebya December 5, 2012 at 3:20 PM #

    We have to take what we can get the way we’re given it, right? You nap because your body needs and wants you to. I nap because I’m lazy as shit and want to. Don’t worry; if we’re ever in the same place, I will totally lay down and miss something with you because your body is more important. Do NOT feel me up as we sleep. Unless you ask first.

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