blogging on purpose

When I started writed in 2006 Peyton had just gotten sick. I blogged to keep friends and family updated, it slowly morphed into a place where I vented about the horror of watching my baby in so much pain, I could honestly talk about the good and bad of the life I found myself chin-deep in, and as Peyton’s cancer battle finally relaxed I was able to use my site to support others and be an example of “IT DOES END” that so many parents needed to see.

Then I quit.

I made the choice to close Peyton’s site because it was exactly that: Peyton’s site. Not mine.

I felt like I couldn’t sit and write about myself at a site with her name in the title. Then I thought of Rachael and Nathaniel. I’d written about them for years on their sister’s site, but how fair to them to have Peyton’s name in the title, never theirs.

When I cam home after having my strokes I wrote almost every day. It wasn’t good, it wasn’t insightful, but I did it and it was a good reminder of my recovery.

I’ve not been writing as much as of late.

Part of that is because I’ve been miserably sick since Christmas.

But the bigger part is that I’ve been searching for my purpose in blogging.

I don’t want to be a “mommyblogger”. My kids are kickass but you can read about be telling you HOW kickass they are so many times.

I can’t be a foodie because I don’t cook anything I’d want to take pictures of.

I’d love to go back to photography nut the strokes did take that away.

I’m lucky to be friends with Katherine from Postpartum Progress. She’s an incredible writer and outrageously fun person. I respect her so much for taking something she feels strongly about and  helping others feel supported and educated in dealing in their own lives. She has purpose.

So 4+ years after the strokes and I’m still learning to deal and struggling with the changes in my body. Its hard to blog about it because I feel like I ride a fine line with whining and being grateful to be alive.

When I write I have to feel there’s a PURPOSE to my words. Not just to anyone that reads but a reason for me to through the struggle of sitting at my computer.

Because that’s what it is.

It’s a struggle to ignore the pain in my eyes and type everything with one finger.

It’s worth it some days.

I search for purpose others.

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5 Responses to blogging on purpose

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  2. Sugar Jones February 15, 2014 at 9:59 PM #

    I’m more of an accidental blogger.

    Hugs, Lady. Miss you.

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  3. Chris February 15, 2014 at 8:42 PM #

    To me, the “purpose” of blogging is to tell stories. I don’t let the “dad” in the title of my blog stop me from posting about things like depression or my love of being a geek. The cool thing about the internet is that you get to tell your story in any way you choose to tell it. The people that come to your site are here to read what YOU have to say because they like you. If you want to write about your struggles, you should. I’ll bet it would benefit a lot of people to read about it and I can’t imagine anybody seeing it as whining. Your blog is your therapy and you should treat it as such.

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  4. The Animated Woman February 15, 2014 at 8:06 PM #

    I have no “purpose” in my blogging. Nothing more than just telling stories of funny and hopefully meaningful stuff that happens, or has happened long ago.

    You simply being “you” in all your unique “youness” is enough for me.

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  5. Caz Stone January 18, 2014 at 1:15 AM #

    I know what you mean about purpose…at the moment I’m struggling a bit with life and it shows on my blog in a lack of direction. So I think I know what you mean…but what I wanted to say was I appreciate when you do write – as with all writing in whatever format it’s the glimpse into another world that grips me, and you provide that.

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