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a space of theirs

Writing has been an outlet for me. A way to get my feelings on paper. Get them out of me so I can go on day to day. I don’t know why I didn’t think of that for my kids. Why wouldn’t they need a way to express what is going on in their busy [...]

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the choices i make

Lately it has seemed that I’m making choices to make others unhappy. True. Decisions I have made have caused some to be less than thrilled. I know that. I had to weigh those choices. My family’s needs won every time. The needs of those who are close to me take priority. It’s not that I [...]

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nobody puts my kids in a corner

Yesterday Peter and I met with a pediatrician who told us that our kids seemed to have a lot of pent up emotions. I’m going to let that one simmer for a second. The kids who have dealt with their mom having a stroke. Then their baby sister going through cancer treatment. After which, mom [...]

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words can be a great thing

Dear Parents of Peyton Mayhew… I can’t tell you how many letters over the years have been news we didn’t want. But this was good. So good. Great. FABULOUS. Now this this only three years out of five until we can use the “cured” with confidence. And nothing is ever guaranteed. But these words made [...]

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I had a birthday

I has a birthday. I turned 15. I figure if I’m going to lie I might as well REALLY LIE. So I turned 37. In all honesty we didn’t know if I’d see 37. We didn’t know if I’d see 36. When I say each birthday’s a blessing, I’m not exaggerating. Happy birthday to me [...]

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not all trolls live under bridges

Trolls can hurt any time they take what you say the wrong way. To be honest I have a certain amount of words to use. I CAN’T answer each person the way I’d like. Then to see my friends Catherine and Tanis going through these struggles with CHILDREN, it makes my blood boil. Because I [...]

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’tis our season

Everything came out OK with Peyton. I’m crazy relived. Insanely relieved. My parents are on their way here for the holidays. There’s presents to wrap. Cleaning to do. Groceries to buy. Clothes to wash. OMG. Because of the plague, we stripped all the beds and got all new toothbrushes and now there is LAUNDRY. Laundry [...]

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the bags are in the closet…for now

I can never forget what it feels like, I forgot how a thought can steal your breath away. I forgot what shower tiles look like through a cloud of tears. I forgot the strength it takes to pick up your phone when you’ve seen who it is. The doctor made a call that took me [...]

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moving stuff

Some things never change. The leaves falling in autumn. The tide’s ebb and flow. A woman will want to change the furniture around. OH. IT IS GOOD! I have curbed the urge because its something i can’t do for myself. But today i finally did it. I told the family where to put stuff and [...]

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thanksgiving never had more meaning

I’m sitting here in the quiet for the first time in days. Our trip to Florida was eye-opening. We found out that it was possible to miss people when they were five inches away. We also found that when you told your kids to go, they WENT! But they didn’t take toothbrushes. We did miss [...]

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the secret to our marriage

Every day I would wait until he came and saw me. Hospital.  Nursing home.  Rehab hospital. I would wait to hear his voice. I could hang on all day while I waited for his hug. He would bring my only reason to smile sometimes. Maybe it was the kids. Maybe it was a joke. He [...]

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what matters

I’ve been off my normal schedule this week. I went to a celebration of women in social media. I had injections of Phenol in my leg. I had an unusual amount of work to complete. I did more than my average amount of exercise. I bent over backwards to hear my kids laugh.  “Driving them [...]

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one mouthful of couch-cushion can go a long way

I have a friend that is here from Florida. She was here during the worst of the worst. She was here in the days of uncertainty. She was here the first days I came home from the hospital. She was the first person to push me over on the couch and tell me to get [...]

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