Archive | thing that frustrate me RSS feed for this section

very heavy

I have lackings. Now, I’m not saying that so people will be all complimentary and reassuing. Although, if you want to mention bouncy hair I won’t kick you. But, I do have those moment when I feel the shortcoming. The shoes I can’t wear. The shelves I can’t reach. The jars I can’t open. When [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 13 }

not all trolls live under bridges

Trolls can hurt any time they take what you say the wrong way. To be honest I have a certain amount of words to use. I CAN’T answer each person the way I’d like. Then to see my friends Catherine and Tanis going through these struggles with CHILDREN, it makes my blood boil. Because I [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 20 }

where people in wheelchairs are told, “SUCKIT”

It’s not the easiest thing being in a wheelchair but I try not to complain because it’s better than the alternative. Then I go into a place that doesn’t just NOT accommodate handicap people, it seems to be totally unaware of how crappy their setup truly is. Welcome to Mattress Firm To make sure you [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 76 }

it all starts with a nice letter

This past weekend I was charged up by what I felt was a MISSION. So, I wrote a letter and made some phone calls.  In the near future I’m going to ask you all to take a minute and a stamp and get involved. I wrote this to APPLE today:  (This letter SUCKED to write!!)(I [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 44 }

the power of jealousy

This might come out the wrong way, and I’ll try to make you understand. I’m jealous of my friends. I have these friends that started something new and I’m totally eaten alive with jealousy. I’m not jealous of their success. They so deserve it. I’m not jealous of their accomplishments.  There are none smarter, they [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 15 }

this is the where i bang my head against the wall

Frustration. I’m knee-deep in it. I have these ideas. I explained it to someone as being the point in time when I work on scraps of paper. It’s hard to describe. Difficult to define. I want to draw a picture.  It looks like soup.  Thhhhhhat’s not right. So I’m stuck trying to make others see [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 14 }

Impatient is a word that most people don’t dream about

It feels like something more should be happening. I go to massage therapy twice a week to try to make things that aren’t working…work. I do all the exercises that the therapists have shown me. I make the sounds, I form the expressions, I push on every crevice on my face. Progress remains slow and….always [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 19 }

a story about a bed that isn’t racy in any way

It’s old. It’s seen four moves. It’s been where we brought three babies home to sleep. It’s where we dreamed of healthier days without colds and sniffles, then without cancer and strokes. The bed has seen MUCH better days.  We always said we’d buy a new one, but other thing got in the way. It [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 22 }

looking at old pictures of myself reminds me that i need my roots done

It’s hard to look at old pictures of myself.  It feels like a world away. It can feel like a different person. That woman didn’t have to wonder about whether her smile looks ok. She had both legs working beautifully.  Having two hands on the camera was a thoughtless reality, not a goal. I look [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 25 }

i used to be good at holidays and stuff, now it’s just a day to suck….with cards

The kids asked dad what he wanted for Father’s Day.  He, very honestly, said nothing. He wanted to relax, chill out, do the things that guys like to do. The kids wanted him to do all his normal dad chores. They didn’t understand each others definition of nothing. It’s hard not to sympathize with both [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 12 }

there has to be an easier way, of course i won’t be allowed to take it, but it’s easier

Someone asked a question and I answered, then I wondered how many others had similar thoughts. The person asked me how I got my thoughts to blog, and if I used a voice-recognition software. I wish. Part of me does wish.  It would be nice to have software that makes it easy and fast and [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 25 }

someone asked me to talk, and my sister laughs because they used to ask me to shut up

A while ago Pete and I were asked to speak at a conference. Not just “A” conference, but “the” conference. Blogher. Pete was stuck in a really tough spot. We pretty much had to make a choice to go back when I didn’t handle crowds at all and I thought road signs were totally dangerous. [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 41 }

that orphan chick might have liked singing about “Tomorrow”…i’ve never liked orphans anyway

It has been a rough couple of days. It’s felt both good and bad. I’ve felt lost at the hurt piled up around all the changes in my body. The days are full of smiles of kids’ that are as glad as me that I’m home. There have been days when I realize my own [...]

Continue Reading :: Comments { 17 }