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How can you WILLFULLY hurt others?

I wrote a post this week about food preferences, race and love. It wasn’t meant to make any point. There wasn’t any great stand to be made. It was just telling you that these were my feelings. They weren’t going to change. Then I read about Dominic Sheahan-Stahl. A man who was invited to be [...]

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sometimes i sleep

Nights like this I should be sleeping. I fell into my covers with lethargy as my pillow. So tired. Dreams should come easy. But as my eyes close, the buzzing of my damaged ears turn into sounds that make my stomach ache. I can hear soft shoes shuffling in a hallway, low buzzing and murmuring [...]

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to be myself

I’ve shared tips and told you how *I* do thing. I told how we managed to save money by getting two gallons of milk out of one gallon. I showed you how *I* learned to take off lids with one hand. I’ve shown you tools that have helped me along the way, ways I’ve learned [...]

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do over

There are days you wake and by the time you lay your head back on the pillow you just want to call “DO OVER!” You have no idea of the shitstorm of events about to start just by brushing the sleep from your eyes. Instead of birds chirping. The smell of coffee brewing. Even the [...]

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there can be no neutral

So it inevitably happens. You take the first hit from a friend regarding your split. There’s been been many well meaning yet critical family members. But this was the first time I reached out to have my hand slapped away. It was explained away that they were going to remain neutral and wait til the [...]

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things you can’t un-say

In the heat of arguing things get said with intent to hurt, to destroy, to mar. Afterwards come the apologies, the explanations. So hurt. Didn’t mean it. Was a mistake. Didn’t stop it from hurting. Doesn’t suddenly make it ok. OH….You didn’t MEAN it. That changes everything. It still devastated. It flayed the the layers [...]

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the “D” word

Douchebandit. That’s the “d” word I was thinking about. What were YOU thinking of? Douchebandits. Douchebag McGreggor. Douchemover. All good words to describe certain behavior. I would LOVE to justify it by saying that *I* have never acted that way. But I have. So has Pete. Out of anger. Confusion. Fear. Frustration. Hurt. Just because [...]

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being together

Christmas morning at the nursing home was an experience. I lived in this constant fear of my family leaving and not coming back. There were cards, the kids brought gifts, we tried to celebrate together. I remember the laughing of the kids. I hugged them SO tight. I was very tired, but was afraid to [...]

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my name is Germy McPlaguerson

The doctor says I should be feeling better any day. I’ve been sick since Sunday. Any day.

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another frustrated photographer

Peyton had a project I helped her do. It was printing a picture for each year to build a timeline of PEYTON. We printed the pictures out.  Peyton as a baby.  Peyton as a toddler.  Peyton with cancer. Peyton just before I had the strokes. The final picture was one of my favorites. One I [...]

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the dream i had

Not everything in my life gets to be funny. I see the humor in so many things and appreciate laughter in every form. But sometime the reality of what happened to me sneaks in and steals my laughter. Leaves fear and tears in it’s wake. I cry out in memory of those moments when I [...]

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in case you were gift-buying

Having a vision problem and only one hand to use, my love of books was something I had to let go of. When I say “love of books” I mean that I used to have five kids and sold two to get the newest release I was waiting on. These three are just glad the [...]

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what we can do together

In the past I’ve had the chance to help families as a blogger and get involved with efforts to benefit pediatric cancer families. Then a moment comes along that both meet in one and I KNOW these sites aren’t just proof of narcissism gone wild! Are you familiar with Love Drop? Love Drop is a [...]

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