leaping over and over

on August 20, 2010 in The stuff i don't and won't understand

Tweet Sometimes you forget how long you were gone. Then you find music is no longer popular.  Shows you were watching were canceled. Things that used to be are no more. In ways it can be really good. REALLY good. In others, you can just feel left behind. Your kids, the mortgage, life. It all [...]

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i shower therefore i vlog

on August 19, 2010 in When I vlog

Tweet Vlog – cell phone from Anissa Mayhew on Vimeo.

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the dream time

on August 18, 2010 in I can't make this stuff up

Tweet It was hard to explain how real my dreams felt. The coma-stage feelings were very hard to shake. There was whole series of dreams where I was in my bed but I watched those around me watching baseball. Baseball. My reality seemed to be watching the people I loved move around me and talk [...]

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today is different

on August 17, 2010 in The stuff that sucks

Tweet Face down on a padded table. Relaxing for some. Relaxing for the half that works right. Excruciating for everything else. Painful beyond belief. Teeth-gritting, muscle-tightening, crying-out pain. I’ve never cried. In all that I’ve had to do, all that they have done to me. I have never cried. I have take minutes to pull [...]

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another slice of the past you have to give up

on August 16, 2010 in The stuff that sucks

Tweet It’s hard when I’m watching my friends make plans and I know I can’t go.  Not because of cost or convenience (although those are always issues) but because of what I can and can’t do. I worry about about being the party pooper.  Being the one to one to ruin plans.  Or to bring [...]

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i have never been so happy about dirty underwear in my life

on August 15, 2010 in I can't make this stuff up

Tweet A few weeks ago I complained. Nothing terribly new, I feel like I complain every day. But I was complaining about something very specific.  How sad it made it made me to get rid of my mattress. Oh, I’ll get rid of it.  It’s older than dirt. But, I complained about the emotions that [...]

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